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I wanna CRUsHHHH U.... cruSHHH!!!!!!


Well it half past midnight, but I don’t feel sleepy yet. I played with my phone, scrolling here and there then, I suddenly bump into my old messages with my so called ‘crush’ so to put it simple, I used to like that guy and wished that he would be mine.... well some people might ask, why did I kept those messages?? What for?? Yeah, I know its kindda stupid yet, what can I do its part of my memoir with him... “cinta Monyet lah katakan”
 

sometimes it’s really hard to let go of the past, and the past usually makes you wanna turn back the time and fix where it goes wrong so that u’ll be happy and you won’t regret not even a bit... haha.. am I sounded silly or it is just too cliché to utter such words?? Never mind with the cliché part.. but, its true right?? See.. I gotcha....
back to my story on the messages, we’ll u know what, I delete em all... nothing left out.. huh... anyone who had these messages in their phone should do this sometimes, then, u’ll experience the sensation when you felt that there is no more connection between you and him... most importantly, there is nothing in the past that can stop you from going forwards...

getting tangled up in a relation where you are not so sure that the other parties is also into you turns out to be so tiring and it such a heartbreak when you found out that what u’ve been afraid of had become reality... you thought that you and him would remain friends forever, yet, he left you... no more messages afterword, no more laughter shared, no more childish humour and many more... just becase he found his other half... which obviously not you (me)...

but, I’m so thankful for his change of heart, because of him I saw a new light in me,,, a new me that become much closer to my creator Allah S.W.T...  because of him, I sense how much I’ve forgotten the rule of Islam, that forbids COUPLING... because of him, I get to start anew, a new me, a new lifestyle, a new character which are way better than I am before.

Nevertheless, actually, it wasn’t him that change me... but its the power of Allah S.W.T.. this showed that Allah stills loves me, care for me and is still by my side. He showed me the way, a way towards his blessing and care.... the way where I will find peacefulness and harmony...



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  1. Muhammad Adib30 June 2013 at 18:45

    haha i thought that u were a heartless person before, don't know that u also have a crush. how do you find the strength to let go of the past ?

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